When I started Closet Confessions, I never thought of it as a place to divulge my inner self. I never thought of it as my online diary, but I knew it was my little space that I could share the things I liked, the things I wore and even at one stage, thought it would be a place to grow my confidence (indeed it has).
But there is one thing I have never really done, and that would be to share the inner workings of my mind and the things that often come through with being who I am, in the place I reside etc etc. It was never because I felt like I couldn’t share or that I didn’t want too. No, I am not really sure what my main reason is. Perhaps I didn’t think my life was that different from that of other plus size 22 year olds? Or that no one would care to read on about the thoughts in my head and the feelings in my heart.
For those who know me as a person and not just as a digital personality, it takes a lot for my to pull back the layers and explain myself. I like to be in control of what people know about me and how much information they get, but over time I open up to the idea of sharing who I am. I guess this goes to show I must be okay with who I am, after sitting in a studio at Cleo magazine for their January 2013 issue and opening my heart about what makes me happy, family, money and love. Things I would normally never share with anyone.
Between the time of my photo shoot and the date of publishing, I spent many hours thinking about what I feel comfortable in sharing on the internet. I would lie awake at night, thinking over and over, that if I started write and share my experiences, would the change be too far? Would my life take away the fun of the fashion? As I read blogs from Natalie at XL as Life and Danimezza, women who I now call my friends, they express themselves with an honesty and purity that speaks from the heart. They inspire me in so many ways. I want to be confident to share how I feel with my readers. But I also want to know if they desire to read the things I wish to write about…..
This year I have embarked on so many new journeys that I feel the need to write. Sometimes I feel it is easier to let the emotions flow from my fingers rather than verbally. So, I will write and I will share the first steps into dating, the changes to my health, the boosts of my confidence. I want to share this with the internet, but at the same time it does not matter if not one person will comment, nor one person will read.
As Closet Confessions celebrates its second birthday and moves into the 3rd year of being online, I want to share with you new aspects of my life. Because as many women will know, a closet normally houses more than clothes, shoes and accessories.
I want to talk about travel and love and express my excitement to complete my uni degree! I want to share my weight loss, my diet, my new found recipies….and I want to share my relationship with Jacob, the boy I tweet about and Instagram because while many may think its too soon, I think I’ve found my other half and the feeling is impossible to describe.
There are so many things that are happening this year that I cannot wait to share with you and I look forward to sharing my journey with you for 2o13. I promise to update regularly, and when I cannot, I will post through social media such as Instagram and Pinterest. I’ll be writing for We Heart Life (more info coming soon!) and I aiming to write regularly for Skorch Magazine. I’m hoping to explore my options in fashion, interior decorating and my future in my little internet space.
But for now, be prepared for fashion and fun as I tackle 2013 head on and celebrate life!
Let me know what you like most about Closet Confessions; I treasure those who take the time to read my website and I want to share this journey with you!